I going to my nephews birthday party, and I both exited and a bit nervous. This will be the first time my family will be gathered since The Accident, and I am very happy to be able to go with them. Its my brothers son that turns 6 today, and its pretty easy to get into my brothers house, no bloody stairs! But I still a bit nervous, because there will be a lot of people and I hate all the questions. I know the mean well, and are only trying to show some compassion. But I have answered the same question too many times already, and often people think I am over exaggerating, but I can´t even carry my own cup of coffee!!

I have been home too long, I need to get out and socialize. This is though being stuck at home, and being alone most of the day. I try and keep my self occupied, but it is hard filling a whole day with activities.